Faith

The St Paul's experiment is the reengineering of my faith. I want to distance myself from the modern setting of the church, the guitars and drumbeats, not because I have grown to be against it but I want to better focus my soul and spirit in search for Christ. To put myself within this premise, where the music fades and all is stripped away, one way to help me is to go to St Paul's.

I'm calling it the authentic regime. This is as close as I can get to access my religion in its more traditional sense. The contemporary approach has cautioned me of being over zealous on the inclination to seek religiousity. But I shall enter this phase with my head bowed and my spirit knelt at the desperate search to clearly receive spiritually. I want my spiritual intake to be dense, laden with complexity and with breakthrough, blessed with epiphany.

Furthermore, being also tied into the body of a church where I have grown to be part of at HTB Students every Tuesday, it is now easier for me to experience both the grace of God in the contemporary and the magnitude of his Holiness in the traditional. God is multi-dimensional. I don't know if my time here in London is temporary, but for whatever its worth, I'm making sure that this will be a fruitful phase.

What does this mean to me as an individual? The goal I am pursuing is not sacralisation but rather the opening-up of my spiritual consciousness where I can be reflexive with God being a best friend (which I have no problems going into that) and God being the God up high, the deity that I fear.

Being more conscious is vital as I am on the journey towards seeking revelation. I am living in a phase of spiritual contemplation because I can afford it and because I can psyche myself into adoration as when the distinguished choir resonates within the cathedral, and when I close my eyes, it would be easy for me to spiritually envision the presence of God. Thank God for that and the grace that I can enjoy being so easily ushered into meeting him this way every week.