Before this sharing becomes a case study of some sort, what I have been meaning to say is that despite this perceived stability, I feel a tide rising against these elements in my life. The world that I have come to know have been dropping hints about the need for me to assimilate. I feel that in church, at work, over social networks, et. al., in the course of finding myself, it may be necessary to also begin another process - a defensive process.
I am expressing these things not for the sake of showing solidarity. I am not against the norm or any system in particular. I just find the need to begin defending who I am. This defence begins in my heart, mind and soul. It is to protect the secret places of my heart. It is to protect the deepest hopes in my life. It is to protect the people that I love. The closest things in life are secret. Therefore, like secrets, I seek to protect them.
Truth be told, the biggest personal challenges in my life reside in the church and in the workplace. But nevertheless, I am thinking through these things, in prayer, contemplation and consultation. Similarly, this is how my heart and mind is oriented in these few weeks of birthday thought.
Let this be one heck of a year!