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Sometimes I'm appalled by the magnitude of what my work means. It embarrasses me personally at times because sometimes I wish I just had a little more time studying, or a longer break from doing anything at all.

But after being stagnant for two months, I took the call to be a tax-paying citizen (at 22! OMG!), contributing to the country.

This places me as a stakeholder in many issues in the government. Their policies affect me. As I go further into leaving the age of being a student, which I have been so well accustomed with, these few months have been, live changing.

Issues get closer to me, instead of being part of the ranting about things that people are not satisfied, I break the dissatisfaction to them - which is why now I know why most of my seniors do not show their optimism as much as I do, because they are less gullible than I am.

I guess the part I miss most will be the weekends. They are like gold to me now. Although it feels great, the roads are generally not jammed, I have lost a liberty that many others still have. But on the hind sight I get to rest more with these off days during the weekdays, or during nicer arrangements, half weekends.

Its true that work takes a part of me, I have been less of everything that I have previously had great passion in - less of serving in church, less of a friend to my closest friends. Sometimes even less of a boyfriend. Sigh.

But this is what I've always wanted to be. And if my passions and those close to me follow, I'll know that they're for real. Like you.

Then I met with an entrepreneur, who told me that it is the trend that stands through the times. One works less as he progresses - from being hands on to management and directing.

It comes with the package of how one will go forth in life. Firstly, earning an income. Then, probably a house/car. Then if they are blessed they get married and have children. The challenge is to make every of these phases exciting.

Janda Baik

Was at George Gan's orchard. Sand mining is causing much anxiety for the nature lover as erosion at the river embankments near his orchard is occuring due to sand mining. - All shots taken using the M.ZUIKO DIGITAL 14-42mm 1:3.5-5.6. Selected Art Scenes used especially the Pop Art and Pinhole effects for some pics.

First shots

ALL SHOTS UNEDITED: Used the M.ZUIKO DIGITAL 17mm 1:2.8 Pancake (35mm equivalent focal length: 34mm) for all shots. Taken using 1280x780 cause didn't have a decent enough memory card (256mb). I have since gotten a Samsonite Tai and an 8gb SDHC card. :)

Curious about the pinhole effect in some of the pics? They're from the built-in Art Filters. Nice.

Oyster

My heart is your pearl.
It will form and gleam for you in a way how it feels for you.
But the challenge for this beauty is that
I first
have to undergo
this season in my life,
this shaping of my character.

As you seek to grow and do what's right.
I too am preparing myself.

Ego

If my ego was the size of a pumpkin prior to this season in my life now, it is now, a pea. Everyone has an ego some way or another, the difference is in the expression of how conscious we are to our own identity. Some are superior, some, inferior, some... like me... couldn't care less but it comes on as in itch that refuses to go away.

The thing is this. There are many challenges in my life that I feel to be really huge. I can't even see the outcome. It's hard to envision, and without vision, it places my life's trajectory into a state of controlled chaos.

It is due to the fact that before this, I get my heads up on things that will happen. I knew when an exam was coming, when my holidays are, when I was going to graduate. Now, I'm sucked into a vortex of the working world towards a jaded reality that all my academic ideals are just fairy tales.

It is also that there is no place for my heart to be this way anymore. I'm not assured of so many things. I just don't know sometimes. I used to know all the time previously. There is no confirmed end to this season as in yet. Now, that's why its hard and I spend most of my time just figuring it out.

Maybe I lack the faith, maybe I have the faith but the work sometimes tire me.

PS: I'm buying the Olympus Pen! WOOT! There goes my hard earned moolah! But all for a good cause! Maybe if I freeze shots of my reality, I'll see how good it is.

I was told that things change. It is the reality that gave me the greatest pinch. I need to find the familiar happiness. This is what love is to me in this season. But you smile at me.

It's the happiness that I am familiar with. :D

Geekout!

I've been blogging for ages. Maybe in the recent months, things have been a little slow, if not, VERY slow. However, there are no personal plans to stop blogging since social media has taken on a greater role in pushing forth a vibrant and active facade of society.

Well, to celebrate the fact that blogging, facebooking and twittering (words that weren't words in the past decade) has taken the world by storm, here are some codes for avid Nokia users to know their phones even better. Your cellphone is your most personal asset. It is the "in-thing" now for humankind in general.

If ever you have thought about your Nokia's details, just key in:

*#06# - International Mobile Equipment Identity (imei): Serial Number.

*#0000# - To view software version.

*#2820# - Bluetooth device address.

*#3370# - Enhanced Full Rate Codec (EFR) activation: Increase signal strength, better signal reception. It also helps if you need to use GPRS and the service is not responding or too slow. Will cause phone battery will drain faster.

*#3370* - (EFR) deactivation. Phone will automatically restart. Increase battery life by 30% because phone receives less signal from network.

*#92702689# - (varies for each phone) takes you to a secret menu (Woot!) where you may find some of the information below:

• Displays Serial Number.
• Displays the Month and Year of Manufacture
• Displays (if there) the date where the phone was purchased (MMYY)
• Displays the date of the last repair - if found (0000)
• Shows life timer of phone (time passes since last start)

Geekout! =)